We met online, first date was Starbucks at the mall and from there was daily messages. Second date was about a week later, he asked me to be his girlfriend. It was exactly what I wanted, the romance and the smart ass.
Therapy has helped him get to a good place to be ready for a relationship. Lots of conversations about future, experiences and setting the framework for a good foundation.
It’s all done now, he doesn’t want to date me anymore. The loss of his presence, the potential and being hopefull. Something changed, something happened, something wasn’t measuring up and it is rough. All my anxious thoughts, all the worst things I think are true about myself are true. It seems that he was settled with it over the last days of talking to him. I do hope that he finds his person and find the happiness and peace.
In the mean time, I have cried and apologized for not being the correct choice. I have messaged onces by text and once by email so I selfishly can have closure. So many big feelings of loss, care andof him. It did shove me to finally start talking to friends and a first therapy appointment..
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